For example, when choosing which one of my many (many) journals to write in for the year, I can spend a good day narrowing down my options. If I'm not comfortable with it, I'll change the journal midway through the year. I hate doing that, though, because it seems like such a waste of paper.
I've come to the conclusion that I need to work on myself. Not only in the physical way, but also in the emotional way. I'm no longer as confident in myself or the work that I do. I've lost a tremendous amount of respect for myself and this is never a positive indication to the suability of my health.
I want to become confident again. I want to be the happy, quirky girl who smiles all of the time and laughs uncontrollably because she has this way of finding the good in everything. I want to go back to being the positive person that I am.