Friday, May 23, 2014

A Manifesto

I have been looking to make this blog a better place for me to write down my feelings. I want it to be a place I am very comfortable writing about anything and I know that if I don't personally like it, the writing won't flow. 

For example, when choosing which one of my many (many) journals to write in for the year, I can spend a good day narrowing down my options. If I'm not comfortable with it, I'll change the journal midway through the year. I hate doing that, though, because it seems like such a waste of paper. 

I've come to the conclusion that I need to work on myself. Not only in the physical way, but also in the emotional way. I'm no longer as confident in myself or the work that I do. I've lost a tremendous amount of respect for myself and this is never a positive indication to the suability of my health.

I want to become confident again. I want to be the happy, quirky girl who smiles all of the time and laughs uncontrollably because she has this way of finding the good in everything. I want to go back to being the positive person that I am.